Decisions, decisions.

Loveley isn't it? Christmas already. And what have I accomplished since the last time I decided to write a blog...? umm, nothing. No job- worst thing ever. Relying on my parents to pay for everything I do. Oh the laziness of me. One day...one day, i will have a job...hopefully. Ah okay what to talk about now that I do nothing fequently and do something rarely. How about the lack of communication between friends after school? The people that you thought you had a real relationship with forget you exist. People say what they have wanted to say to you for so long. Is it fair to fight back?

I generally just ignore comments now. Its not that I dont have the time to argue its just I really can't be fucked. I think back to all the times I've fought with mates, over the silliest and over-exaggerated things. And yes I will admit I still dislike a lot of people I have met over the years. They know that too. Maybe in years to come ill be sitting at a pub with my new found friends and ill look around, see an old disliked face and decide its time to forgive and forget. Is that the easiest way? Forgive? Forget? I guess i'll know when I reach that point in my life.

So leaving highschool opens up a whole new world. Not nessesarily a friendly one but a more productive world. New friends, new adventures and new experiences. I dont find the fact that I might end up in debt, homeless and out of work an issue. Im more pressured into thinking if I leave my world behind for a new exciting adventure will the same people love me when I get back? Is it worth waiting maybe a few more years? Push back my dream of moving on for the sake of others I love? Selfish or selfless? Either one...its going to change the rest of my life.

I say bring it on. Bring on the new world. Finding and losing. Fighting and winning.

Forgiving and Forgetting.