Decisions, decisions.

Loveley isn't it? Christmas already. And what have I accomplished since the last time I decided to write a blog...? umm, nothing. No job- worst thing ever. Relying on my parents to pay for everything I do. Oh the laziness of me. One day...one day, i will have a job...hopefully. Ah okay what to talk about now that I do nothing fequently and do something rarely. How about the lack of communication between friends after school? The people that you thought you had a real relationship with forget you exist. People say what they have wanted to say to you for so long. Is it fair to fight back?

I generally just ignore comments now. Its not that I dont have the time to argue its just I really can't be fucked. I think back to all the times I've fought with mates, over the silliest and over-exaggerated things. And yes I will admit I still dislike a lot of people I have met over the years. They know that too. Maybe in years to come ill be sitting at a pub with my new found friends and ill look around, see an old disliked face and decide its time to forgive and forget. Is that the easiest way? Forgive? Forget? I guess i'll know when I reach that point in my life.

So leaving highschool opens up a whole new world. Not nessesarily a friendly one but a more productive world. New friends, new adventures and new experiences. I dont find the fact that I might end up in debt, homeless and out of work an issue. Im more pressured into thinking if I leave my world behind for a new exciting adventure will the same people love me when I get back? Is it worth waiting maybe a few more years? Push back my dream of moving on for the sake of others I love? Selfish or selfless? Either one...its going to change the rest of my life.

I say bring it on. Bring on the new world. Finding and losing. Fighting and winning.

Forgiving and Forgetting.

Futuretarded.

Oh man. October? Since when? Ahh I love school and how it consumes my life. Well here we are, months later...i've been busy. Well not BUSY, but preoccupied? Yeah Meagan, good excuse dickhead. Honestly, I just havn't really had anything to whinge about. But I think now has come the time to begin again. I've nearly completed my year 12 VCE, which I will be recieving shortly. Im actually really surprised I have got through it. I was VERY CLOSE to failing...like "Hey Meagan, um...you've failed...but i like you sooo i'll pass you on this outcome, but TRY next time?" and response is "I love trying, i'm just shit at it." My teachers love it. I just can't wait for that last day, sitting at the table watching the clock, waiting for the bell. Jump out of my seat and scream "FUCK YEAH!" then say a sad goodbye to all the people i wont see until our first reunion in twenty years. I'll probably come back as the crazy lady with 50 cats...

So what to do with my life when i'm done? The beginning of real life seeing as im not even attempting university. Ha! Imagine that. University, another couple years in my youth waisted with my head in the books. Kudos to my mates who have decided on their life careers at the tender age of 18... I find it amusing that two years ago I convinced myself the next two years would be the best times of my life...that's a negative. I must say i've made some life lessons during those years. The amount of alcohol one can consume, the amount one can smoke and various dickheads too avoid in the future. Thanks highschool, you've made me one wise adult. I now know how to defend myself from alcohol abuse, smoking and being a whore.

I can't complain though, I now have an education to support me. Get me a good job and earn a living. I can't wait till I actually start earning more then..um...nothing? I love being unemployed *Insert sarcasm here* I'm cherishing my free time now because i know in a couple of months i won't have time to even wipe my own ass. I refuse to go on the dole, mainly because I know how much i'll take advantage of the governments money and end up spending it on petrol i'll be waisting in the Mc'Donalds drive thru.

So now my future is in my hands. I can choose to succeed or be complete retard doing nothing for the rest of my life. Well, I like doing stuff and I'm not really a big fan of retards...so i think i'll stick to success. And by success i mean, 50 cats and a lifetime supply of weed.

That's the life.

Hey you, I could be your girlfriend...

Its that time of the year where is seems everyone but me is getting together. Im not just talking about hooking up and "loving life" so to speak. Im talking about relationships. The intimate kinds you only find in love heart shaped boxes. I hate those kinds. Especially when your holding the box right in front of someone and for some reason they dont see it. The trouble is, I really can't do anything about it. These very people are the ones who say "It will happen out of the blue..." and "Be patient..." Umm, easy enough for you to say. Your the one with the heart shaped box full of awesome sex and candy...SHAME ON YOU.

Im honestly speaking on behalf of my close friends. I have few who are at a stage where any attention is completely acceptable and praised upon. Where as my other friends who are in relationships discuss the benefits of having someone to hold in their gentle little arms each night. Not exactly my type of discussion seeing as my jelousy rating goes from about a 2 to a 12. More annoying is when friends explain the little things their partners do that make them happy...makes you realise how much you laugh at stupid things.

Ah life is simple when your in love... someone to hold hands with while shopping for condoms. Where as single people are looked down upon. Man buying condoms, "Just these please..." Woman serving him, (evil stare) "Would you like a bag?" Man, "Nah, I'll be right..." Woman, "Pshh...Slut." Singles are not safe against evils from checkout chicks. Most likely a different situation with couples...no evil stares for them. More like fake smiles and quick service to avoid conversation.

The worst and most possibly annoying thing about your friends being in relationships is time. Lately ive been noticing a decline in the amount of time I spend with those friends. What I dont get is how you can spend so much time with the one person. So much time is spent loving and caring and hugging...why? Your not running out of time...there is plenty to go around. Friends who take partners as first priority over friends maybe want to think twice. Who they going to turn to when the boy you've been seeing breaks your heart? No one, because while you were busy looking into their eyes your friends have been waiting on the side. Sick of waiting for the love they need and deserve. Sure, have time with your boyfriend but dont brush off the friends who will stick by you when your heart shaped box...

has a massive hole in the bottom.

I love the nightlife baby.

It's been a while since i've written a blog...and I havn't even realised. I've been so busy being an adult I forgot how to express myself. Not really, but it has been a while. Well as you might have guessed, I have turned eighteen. Ah the wonders of being legal. Opens youths to adulthood and nightlife over night, showing them the true colours of a city in all its glory. Now your eighteen you can go out with older friends who have been asking you to come out with them for months. No wondering if your going to get in or not with your dodgy fake ID. No asking parents to buy you alcopops or friends for ciggies. Your on your own now, the world is yours...Now that were over that excitement let me point out something i've come to realise. If I was to go to a typical club of any sort i guarantee you 99% of people there are looking to get into someones pants...

And I know you say "Oh but that's what you do when people go out. Thats the point of going out, to pick up..." Ummm Am I the only one who just wants to dance? Really? Because it bloody seems like it. And you know what, I dont have a problem with 99% in pants theory...it would just be nice though if for once I could go out and not be surrounded by males who love nothing more then being sexist and drunk. You know what, even better, I love drunk guys who dance next to you so closely so when you turn and around they take it for 'i like that'...I don't like that. And sure there are those girls out there *cough* slappers *cough* who enjoy those boys attention. They love the attention and hype one makes for a dancing twig with D sized boobs and fake hair extentions. Lets not stop at that, lets pick on the profuse amount of sleezy guys who hit on the crying drunk girls...now thats tops. You cannot beat the classiness of a crying drunk who is being carried by her best friend while holding a glass of PP in the other hand. You just can't beat it.

Now in the defence of the mature minded adults who do party while drinking responsibly, I have a great amount of respect. I am a non-drinking partier who enjoys nothing more then joining my drunks friends for a night on the town. As I walk into a club on the outside lays a very young girl, off her tits and legs parting ever so slightly. Now is it just me...or is that precisely the perfect target for a sexual predator? Anyone? No? I really, really, really hope that girl has been picked up. I sort looked then laughed at the comment the girl said next to me. "Oh my god. Thats me...in year 10." I don't know why I laughed but I think maybe it was because the joke itself made me realise how much of our lives we waist on getting waisted.

Why do we persist on getting so drunk we don't remember the night before? Do we want to forget what we have done? Or get so hammered you don't remember how you got that bruise on your leg? What about getting so drunk you throw up your mums spagetti and wake up with hot sweats and cold feet? Why do we give ourselves hangovers and spend our whole pay on making ourselves ill? Is this fun? Does it get you a trophy or a prize? All I see is a couple of underaged 16 yr olds with a key. A key to a world that maybe needs to be thrown away for a couple more years, just until a guy learns to keep his junk in his pants. Hey, maybe if your lucky you might even get laid...

...Thats if you remember.

BFFL?

Friends, such an amazing connection can be found in one person. Humans are naturally attracted to their friends. What they do and say, you seem to admire and respect. It's just something that happens between two people. You get along, make each other laugh and trust each other enough to tell your secrets and beliefs. Nothing is more comforting then knowing you have a friend who will always be there when your as your lowest. Someone who will listen to your every thought and worry. A friend, who just is...everything. What if, this 'connection' or trust is broken? One slip and is it over? Or will the other be forgiving and give a second chance?...Does every friend deserve a second chance?
From experience i've been through too many friendships. It's always been like that for me since I was young. For some reason, I stray away from friendships that don't mean alot to me. If that person doesn't appriciate my time why should I waste it on them? Just waisting my time basically. It's rare to find true friends after sifting through everyone else. Some people are lucky and meet there best friends at birth or a very young age. They know everything about each other and all their idiosyncracies...like married couples but without the wedding rings.

Trust is the most likely the main thing that matters in a friendship. You should be able to trust a friend...tell them what you think without offending and be honest about your thoughts and opinions. I don't know how my mates put up with my opinions...kudos kids. Like almost everyone I think it's safe to say...everyone has told a secret. Even if its big or little, its still a secret and means something to the person who told you. They put trust in you to keep it because they have respect for you. Now, imagine the other way around...

If you have been friends with someone for a really long time and they tell a secret to somebody you hardly know about you, would you get angry? Quite possibly end a friendship. Stop talking. Don't look at each other when you pass in the street. Say things about them you promised you never would say. In this moment of hate...do you ever look to the past? When you thought you would never fight and nothing could tear you apart. NOTHING...?

The only thing that can tear a friendship apart, is ourselves. Someone slips up, makes a mistake. They may regret it or they might have thought it was the right thing to do. Whatever it is...i dont think its worth a friendship. A friendship is priceless. You cannot buy a friends trust. You can't buy smiles or laughter. You can't describe a feeling of being wanted and appreciated by another. Being appreciated for being...well, you. Being all you can be and giving it back in return is the greatest gift. Friendship IS the greatest gift...

Don't take it for granted.

Grr.

WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HARD!?

MAKE IT EASIER!

LIFE WAS MADE TO ENJOY, NOT FAIL!!!

Dreaming about sleeping.

Lately I've found it very hard to get a full nights sleep without waking wondering where the hell I am and answering the phone when no one calls. My restlessness is causing massive bags under my already droopy eyes and my smile is slowly beginning to fade. I find it harder to wake up in the mornings and find it harder to go to sleep. Am I thinking THAT hard that its impossible for me to sleep a full night? To wake up in the morning and yell "GOOD MORNING!" (Note: who ever does that, you deserve to be depressed) would be a life changing experience. I think too much about everything when I sleep. This "task" isnt enjoyable anymore, it used to be fun! Now its just tiring...since when was sleeping tiring!?

Since I started highschool ive always had a thing about sleeping. Its probably the most a teenager will ever do, and do successfully. I usually get home from school and go have a sleep, which I know is very unhealthy but it's probably the only way I stay up for dinner. But now it's sort of getting to a point where I have threethirtyitis (when my brain is blank) and I sleep till dinner time, then I dont sleep till 2am (when my brain is most active). Am I just creating one big hole of sleepy? I should be the boogey man, at least it would keep my mind off things bothering me.

So now I think..."oh my god, its 3am and I havnt slept. What am I going to do tomorrow? I mean today? Is it tomorrow? Wait...when IS yesterday? What did I do yesterday? Ohh that's right...blah blah blah." until it's 4am. THEN im fucked. The worst is when I'm just getting to sleep when mum is waking up at 6am. Then you can hear her stomping around, cleaning dishes and talking the cats. Goes a little something like this..."Oh Bonny! What did you do that for, hmm? What? What? You love me? Oh I love you too..."...Every morning. Don't even get me started on the dog.

One day, hopefully, i'll finally go to bed around a 'normal' time and wake up at a 'normal' time. Open my blinds to the outside world, rub my eyes and smile. Jump from my warm doona and into the shower...where I eventually fall asleep...Hang on...Damn it! Oh well, maybe tomorrow...

...or is it today? ARGHH.

Back to the Future, just.

Being the age I am, It's sort of forced upon me to decide what I want to do and who I want to be right now. Honestly, I'm really looking forward to fucking everyone off and starting again overseas. What better way to start again then just pack up and leave those people who hold you back in your aspirations and dreams. How dare they steal you of your ideas and future. I have so many people around me in my life saying "Go to uni." or "Do your exams." and "You'll fail." Can't I just do what I want? How hard is it to get a fucking break around here without being told what to do or say? Get out of headspace!

Since a young age i've had a hightened sense of maturity so when people talk to me, they speak the truth and treat me like an adult. Most people have different opinions and theories about school and the future. My 'wisdom'; Do what you can, when you can. Dont push it, or you wont finish it. I follow this to the T. I'm such a Stop/Start person I start something and NEVER finish it. A bit like highschool. I really am over all the crap they are feeding my brain and the pressure they put on kids these days to finish.

You can't get a proper job without finishing your VCE certificate or qualifying for a TAFE course in that industry. The rules are getting harsher and less people are becoming professionals due to rising HEX fees and payments. Why should all these things make a difference? Whats the VCE certificate surposed to prove? That you can withhold hell!? Employer says "Ah, Meagan...I see you have been to hell and back? How was it?" I say "Um..Shit." Employer says "Congratulations, you've got the job!"...Yeah right.

All I want to do is be myself. Stay true to my beliefs and thoughts. I want to see the world, not just hear stories. I want to experience everything there is the experience. None of this book bullshit or study for my future crap. That CAN wait...

But my heart can't.

Too late to apologise?

I'm in a bit of a pickel. Basically I fucked up big time...me and my loud mouth has once again put pressure on me and my relationships with my closest and most trusted friends. Things were said that maybe shouldn't have been said and somehow it feels like its all my fault. And you now what, it probably is, i'm not going to deny that what I say and do can be a bit out of line. The thing that annoys me is that when I do offend people they say nothing and then one day they snap and bring things from months and months ago that you dont even remember saying. Honestly, Id rather bite the bullet straight away then let someone hold it in the gun for months before shooting me. Those bloody bullets can really hurt.As much as I try to keep my mouth from straying to anti-social behaviour and boasting, I lose sight of whats around and who is listening. Also known as, STFU Syndrome, where the affected can't shut the fuck up. I have STFU and a bad case at that. I've been known to say a few offensive things and maybe gone too far...but trust me there IS worse people out there. You just can't here them because they're locked up in prison for disordily conduct and domestic disturbances.

So when the other 'victim' finally fesses up and says "I hate how you talk to me.", "What you say offends me." and "You're a bitch." it's sort of a bit too late for that. Why can't the person just say at the time "You're a bitch. STOP. Before you say anything more ofensive you snob." and i'd say "Oh really? I didnt know it offended. Thank you for telling me, i'll stop now."...something along those lines, depending on the person i'm talking too. And if your reading this and going, maybe you should think before you speak, for me...its almost impossible. I have so much to say in such little time. The STFU Syndrome just takes over my mouth and all the sudden what I was thinking is now offending everybody left, right and centre!

I'm going to take this time now to say sorry. Sorry to all the people I have offened with my big mouth and all the secrets I have told people when I should't have. Sorry to the people that trusted me and I let them down. Sorry that i'm not shutting my mouth to make you happy. You know what, Im sorry the world is fucked up and people are dying everyday. Im sorry my mouth has ruined your life...seriously, if you were human enough, who cares what I think. My opinion might be the complete opposite to what your thinking. The people I talk to choose to listen to me and if they dont like it...then they dont talk to me. Thats what friends are for, listening to you shit on. All that matters is your opinion...

...your just reading mine.

Dummer And Dummerer

Latley I've been realising alot of stupid people in my life. People who make life difficult or harder for the other people around them. Is it a natural born thing to be "ignorant" or just plain stupid? You know these people...the ones who think outloud, say stupid things and make you feel embarrassed standing next to them. It sort of makes me think, if they don't realise...then I could be one of these people...Could I be one of THOSE people...?

I had lots of stupid people pass me by in my 17 years of life on Earth. Alot havn't really affected me because I just brush them off, but there are just some people that are hard to brush off. They stick, not letting go like a leech and hold on for dear life until they have sucked all logical thought out of your cranium. Ever had a 'friend' who made you feel dumb by talking to them? I have. I have had a 'friend' who is just so dumb, they can't get a clue. HOW HARD IS IT TO GET THIS?? "Stop talking. You're annoying me and everybody around you." But still this person is consistent to annoy and frustrate. If someone said THAT to me, I'd stop. What does it take, seriously?

Maybe this is why stupid people get hurt alot. They don't realise the pole in front of them until they've walked into the damn thing! Or walk into puddles because their head is to far in the fucking clouds. Thinking about the impossible and doing the possible the worst way possible is what dumb people do best...

Let me ask the male readers..is a dumb girl attractive? We all have our moments but some girls are just plain DUMB. Common sense apparently only lives in a person with an IQ of 345 and Einstiens love child. Is everybody around me sucking smart from my brain? It feels like it. Next time you speak to someone who is so draining you...stop them, tap there forehead and see it they fall over. The best thing about dumb people is that they shut up when they think really hard...the worst is when dumb people mock you.

THEY CAN'T MOCK. ITS DEFEATS THE PURPOSE OF MOCKING. For example...the maturity of a 6 year old accompanied by the words "Why?"..."Why?"...."Why?"...At the end of every sentance...STOP IT! It's not funny, it's just stupid. Go find some comebacks, grab a torch and then talk to me... then let's see if ill feel the burnnnn. Hmmm? What's that?...Why?...

*TWITCH*.

Honestly, Bitch

Is it bitchy to be truthful and honest? Or is it bitchy to be un-truthful? What is the line between honest and too honest? Now, I would want my friends to be honest, tell me everything they see that I don't in someone. Then again the truth can hurt, but doesn't everything else in the world? Should we just grow thicker skin and evolve or keep our thoughts to ourselves?

If you read my blogs, you probably know i'm an honest person. I fustrated young teenager who finds too many flaws in the world and my surroundings, right? Well, how can I not when there are so many shit people living around me? Everywhere I turn there is a problem, nobody can be honest or else the problem will get worse. But wait, didnt the problem start with that person not being honest in the first place? Its an endless cycle of lies and excuses.

I've been told so many times I'm a bitch for being too honest. And yes, I know I have a big mouth but that's me...its how ive learnt to be. I never got anywhere lying or playing games, then again has anybody? If you have, you must be a very guilty person because you have un-truthfully moved thoughts and told lies. And sure i've told lies to make people happy, I still do, but when it comes down to telling somebody when they're doing something wrong or doing something right...being honest is most likely the only way to really be. You dont want to be the one who is blamed for anothers faults.

I am proud to say I'm honest and truthful. Call me a bitch all you want...

but atleast im not the one with the heavy shoulders.

Its MySpace

One Teen Wonders

I dont know if its weird talking about personal things on my sort of blog but im going to do it now. SORT OF. I want to talk about the wonders and heartache of teenage life. Me being 17 I think im in the prime place to judge what teen life feels like. So far it hasn't been the best ride ever or the most magnificant. I've been through alot, alot more then most of my friends have. Some don't even know what ive been through because I don't like to talk about how I feel, what think about my life and where I am right now. Sometimes its just too difficult to explain a big black hole. For the lucky ones, some my age have had the time of there lives with young love, friends and experiencing things others would only dream of. What about those who don't? The ones that get stuck half way and stay completely lost, for what seems like eternity?

When it comes to confidence there is two sides of a personality. The "confident" side and the real side. Anyone who has been in depression would know what this is like. Everyday you wake up, put on a brave face for your friends and wonder if maybe this day will be better then the last. And yeah, you have those days that seem great at the time but then the next is just the same as the day before that. You come to a sad realisation...is this MY life? Day after day will I be like this? Will I never experience something new and exciting? Or even thrilling? Life changing?

The problem with the world of teenagers is...highschool. The world is different and everything you do is judged by the people around you, so called friends comment on what you should and shouldn't do. Teachers can make or break you. Love is a posession not a feeling. This fake temporary world full of bimbos, jocks and freaks. Can it really be this horrible? A world so harsh you dont know who you are until you leave?...Yes.

Unfortunatly to survive a world like this you are labelled and have a certain type of personality you must follow. Even if you think you have a clean slate there is always someone who is jealous, angry or frustrated with you to start something, a rumour can ruin you. All your friends gone, enemies become those friends and you get involved with people you thought didnt exist. From the first step in those doors, your first lesson, you are being judged. Is it easier to ignor or get involved? Fight back the enemy and win the glory? Which eventually leaves you none the richer...or happier.

Its a never ending battle. Girls will be girls and boy will be boys. We can learn off each other, grow with each other but never leave our thoughts. Some friends stay friends, others just fade. Dreams become our future and stories our past. Its just getting through it that really hurts the most. Scars are deep...

...but memories are deeper.

Do the Bus Stop

OK. So, I catch the bus almost everyday. From school I walk to some local shops where I catch one bus, then to the station where I wait for another bus which eventually drives me home. I stand for a complete time of 1 hour waiting for buses. 1 hour...I finish at 3:10pm and get home at 4:30-5pm. In the car it takes 10-15 minutes. Now according to the government $4 Billion has been spent on "fixing" our bus services and public transport...*twitch*...

If this is so...WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING FIX THE STUPID BLOODY BUSES AND THEIR FUCKING TIMETABLES. WHY STOP THERE? WHY DONT WE JUST ALL WALK! BECAUSE IT WOULD PROBABLY BE FUCKING QUICKER!!!

I wait too long, I wait patiently then when my bus driver turns up 20 minutes late I politely ask for my ticket where he so rudely grabs my money and slaps me my metcard. "Thanks." I say and take my seat...THATS IF I CAN GET A SEAT!!! Too many times have I had to stand and fall over bags and numerous prams. Too long have I stood in silence about this ever growing shit of a public service. This isn't service...its BULLSHIT. All I get from Ventura and Metlink is a whole lot of bullshit!

I'm sick of missing my bus because of over crowding and stupid bus drivers who won't let me leave the front door. I'm sick of paying $1.60 for the worst 1 and a half hours of my life everyday. I'm sick of sitting at the station being watched by derros and retards. I'm sick of the shit that comes out of the Governments mouths...take that $4 billion and shove it right up there with your ever growing taxes and shitty laws...

FUCKWITS.

Dinge Brinking

Ah the wonders of alcohol, still yet to cease amazment and judemental opinion. You either drink it or you don't. However, there is a limit to how much is drinking to say, "binge" drinking. According to experts teenagers and young adults are increasingly drinking to much alcohol. Research shows $7.6 Billion is being spent on this "quiet epidemic". Many practitioners are concerned with the health of young binge drinkers and the impact it may force on there social lives. With these facts and statements the Australian government are considering banning alcohol till the age of 21...

RIGHTTT. 21? AS IF THAT IS GOING TO WORK! People are still going to drink, passout and do it all over again. You can't stop something so accessable and so socially accepted. It's like telling all fat people to stop eating McDonalds because it makes them fat, it's not going to stop them. Teenagers always have and always will find away to break the law and get what they want. How do you think they have been doing it for the last 60 or more years? It's not like they sat at home and read books. We want to go out and socialise, it just so happens drinking makes us more comfortable in our surroundings.

Now, I must admit...right now i'm really not a fan of drinking because of previous things in my life but I definatley know if my friends were banned from drinking, it still would'nt stop them. You can't stop them. They have friends who can get alcohol for them, its not like its going to run out.

So if this law comes in, what about the rule that parents are aloud to sit down with their children and have a few drinks to teach their children responsible drinking? From experience, the less the kids parents let them drink the more pissed they get at parties. It's just how it is, because they're not used to drinking in normal doses.

Binge drinking between teenagers gives experience to all young adults, helps them socialise and maybe even get the confidence to show off a little. What's wrong with that? What's wrong with dutch courage?...

Let the kids drink, let them spew their guts out and regret the night before. Let them experience the feeling of mistake and responsibility...

It's all about growing up.

Please, I Incest.

If you're from overseas or a faw away land you may not heard of this story. Jennifer Deaves. A divorced, mother of two, woman in her 30's contacted her father after 30 years of separation. After a couple of weeks the pair had sex and began an intimate relationship. Due to their intimate relationship she fell pregnant and gave birth to a baby girl. The father says "I knew it was illegal. Of course, I knew it was illegal but you know, so what."

So what? SO WHAT!!?? ARE YOU SERIOUS!!? YOU HAD SEX WITH YOUR DAUGHTER AND MADE A CHILD AND YOU SAY SO WHAT!!?? You need to like, sort out your brain or something because this is seriously really disgusting. First of all the woman has two children already who are both old enough to understand the complexities of the relationship. Secondly, they have brought a child into the world that has no idea what sort of messed up life it will be brought up in. I'm sure you have your "love" BUT plain and simple, IT'S ILLEGAL! AND GROSS!

Her father is now the grandfather of her child and also the father. What the hell are they going to tell that baby? "Oh yes, the thing about your daddy...his your grandpa." What's the baby going to say? "Okay!" ITS STUPID.

Psychotherapist Joe Sole says "In my view, other relevant factors include the need to prevent the high risk of congenital defects in children born of incestuous relationships and to prevent children suffering psychological harm and social stigmatisation." WELL DUH! ID WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF TOO HIS MY GRANDPA WAS FUCKING MY MUM!

You know what the worst thing was...when asking the father what he thought about the sexual relationship they had, he said "Fantastic!"...

EW.

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=442919

Typical boys.

Men. The better sex? Physically stronger but mentally, unstable. What is it that makes us women want to hang around for the right one? And in that, what is THE right one? Is it- strong mental state, sane attitude and handsom features. Or romantic, devilish grin and a whole lotta humour? What is it that make them, THEM?

Well, of course we wouldn't be here if it wernt for men. They are the um, the sauce of life...yeh that works. So with this "sauce of life", how do we manage 51% females and 49% males? I mean what happens to the 2% of females? Do the men cheat to match up the numbers, to satisfy the 2% of women? Is this maybe why women choose a man they can't have? Not enough men?

If this is so it might explain the constant mind change men possess. One second they seem to want one thing, and then a minute after its like their whole world had been turned around. A mans mood can change just like a single 30yr old womans in the time of the month. Testosterone can bring a man to harming a complete stranger or even a loved one. Like Jack Nicholson in the Shining, men are just one bit ball of MENTAL.

So why do we love them so much? Is there really a typical male? A typical boy who breaks your heart and leaves you with 500 scrunched up tissues and a 1kg of chocolate. Women like men, arnt all the same...in some respects. We all have the same functions and problems, we just have a different outlook and attitude on things. One person could say "He was an asshole anyway!" whereas another would say "But I love him." It all comes down to one thing...experience.

A broken heart, a friendship lost, a fallen friend, a weakness, a mistake, a broken promise, a love lost, a relationship ruined. In the beginning were all the same...all it takes is a little experience to change who we are. Who men respect, honour and love is up to them and their memories. After all...

Some things never die.

Driving me crazy.

Im really annoyed. I've just spent a couple of hours researching this subject and its really paying a toll on my mood. I'm talking about the new P plate laws in Victoria commencing 1st July 2008. VIC Roads are forcing a new law where people who recieve there license after 1st of July 2008 are only allowed one passenger between the ages of 16-21 while on there P1 license. What?! WHAT!!?? ONE!!?? ARGHHHHHHHH! Apparently there is to many young deaths on Victorias roads, so the ones who havnt even made an impact on the roads yet have to pay the price. YAY! I guess they think if we have more then one passenger were more likely to be in car crash? What about designated drivers? Lifts? Doesn't this mean more P Platers on the road?? According to The Queensland Government QLD Transport says "Young drivers aged 17 to 24 are at least two and a half times more likey to die as a result of a road crash than other motorists." OKAY THEN! STATISTICS TIME!!

According to the TAC In 2006, 337 people died on Victorias roads. Let me point out something about these statistics...12% of these deaths were people aged between the age of 16-20. 14% of deaths was 70+, another 14% are 40-49 yr olds AND 18% were 30-39 yr olds. THAT'S 61 DEATHS IN BETWEEN THE AGES OF 30-39! Hmmm. Well, VIC Roads must be doing something right because in 1987 Victorias road toll for ages 16-25 was 110 deaths. While in 2006 it was only 35 deaths. Lets look at 65+. In 1989 death toll was 31 and in 2006 death toll was 31? Wait, is that right? 31? My god!? So wait it didnt move not one death!? Hmmm.

Let me point out something, of those 35 18-25 yr old deaths 74% were males, 71% were intoxicated and 66% were single vehicle crashes. Righttt.

So lets see who causes the most deaths on average. 16-20 yr olds cause 6 deaths on average, 70+ cause 17 deaths and 30-39 yr olds cause 19 deaths...but I thought young drivers aged 17-24 are at least two and a half times more likely to die as a result of a road crash than other motorists? Does that explain this?...

Mildura accident. Where a 34 yr old man killed 5 youths aged 14-17. They were walking...

Fair world, isn't it.

Death to Connex

Boy oh boy, This blog will be angry.

THIS COMPANY...

..can suck a fat one!

Now have had many great adventures into the city on trains. I have never really had trouble catching them, until I got older. Last year, Wednesday 14th November I caught the train with my friend to The Killers concert. On the way (approx. half way) we arrived at a stop and on hopped the most shittest people with the shittest jobs, the Metpolice.

These people, FOR A CAREER, check peoples tickets. Not just check people tickets, they also issue fines to people "breaking" the "laws" of Connex. They carry around these stupid badges and notepads (no joke). Well, of course they go straight for the two teenagers (one with dreadlocks) being rebels and putting their feet on the chairs. Do you reckon they wake up in the morning and think to themsleves "I'm fighting crime :D" or just "I really need to get laid". Apparently its a federal offence to place your feet on the chair. FEDERAL OFFENSE!! OFFENSE!!!! WHAT!!?? Like my new converse shoes could do any damage to your shit train!!! What about this!!??

I REALLY hope these nobheads got caught cause my offense hardly seems OFFENSIVE!! Thats right, I had to pay $162 for placing my feet on the chair. Which wernt even on the seat, they were on the plasitc bit that hobos probably lick! I can understand if my shoes were dirty and muddy but seriously...WHAT THE FUCK!!!?? $162!!! WHAT DO YOU NEED $162 FOR! TO CLEAN THE SEAT!! PLEASE!

Lets talk about the service! Who loves over crowded areas with smelly people? MMM...I love standing next to people with knives. Come on Connex, do you really think we enjoy our adventures to and from the city when were glued to a random 40 yr old guy by sweat? Don't think so. Why dont the ratty station bums get fines? Why do the people catching the train everyday have to put up with there shit, stand in over crowded platforms and listen to some derro talk about his favourite dumpster? Its just got to a point where people are treating the innocent people like fools!

Over crowding is easily solved by taking that $162 you make everyday tax payers pay and investing is some new bloody trains. Maybe this means there will be less fights and more room to breath. Hey who knows, I may even have room to relax and put my feet up!

Brought to you by the nobheads a Connex and Metlink.

Thanks for being awesome!

Starting off.

Well, here we are.
I pretty much have my whole life on the internet. Yes, sad to say *tear*...but I do spend most of my time here anyways so i may aswell get into the swing of things.
I did used to post lots of opinionative blogs on my myspace page then i got lazy and sorta stopped. On the contrary, I started making YouTube videos. Hooray! Which I try to keep up to date with.
I did have one of these a while back, but being me...I lost the account details and password n crap so I didnt bother.
I basically started one again because I have a few things I want to say and tell more geeks on the net about cool things I see and do.
If you ever want to chat i'm up for it. Send me an email at meagan_list@live.com.au and i'll reply right back, unless you're creepy...haha

Okay. So this first one is pretty shit. But hopefully in a few days i'll have some interesting and wonderful stories or opinions to tell.

BYE! *waves*